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Conversations - Questions, Answers, Observations, and a few Kudos |
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One of the prime reasons for creating this site was to provide an opportunity to communicate for those of us who have been or are currently going through the difficult and often emotionally wrenching transition from traditional religion to rational thought. Originally, I created a forum connected to this site, but it seemed that no one could find it and I have abandoned it for the present. I have, however, continued to receive many wonderful emails from readers of the site. People from all walks of life - all over the globe - have made comments and critiques and they have connected to at least one person who has been through what they are going through now. I have been privileged to be in the position to respond to these letters. In fact, when I began to review these emails for their inclusion here, I was amazed at how much material had been received since January, 2002, when I established the site. For the purpose of sharing our stories, our problems, and our different approaches to the transition out of religion, I present these messages here. I have and reserve the right to edit the content to protect privacy and to extract only that material that is related to our purpose here. IMPORTANT
NOTE ABOUT PRIVACY Should you find your letter posted here and you do not want it published, email me and I will remove it. If you send me an email, but do not wish it to be published in this way, just say so and I promise I won't. Correspondence from 2002 - Page: 1(begins below) 2 3 Correspondence from 2003 - Page: 1 2 3 4 Correspondence from 2004 - Page: 1 |
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Correspondence from 2002 Page: 1 |
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NOTE: Since this first email is from the public Ringmaster of one of the Webrings this site is a member of, I have included it with indentifiers. Date:
Sat, 26 Jan 2002 David's Response: Hi, and thank you for your supportive words about "The Joy of Disillusionment". All positive feedback at this point is very helpful as I and my wife have been operating in a vacuum so far and have already been attacked harshly by one former Christian correspondent. Best
Regards, Date: Mon, 4 Feb 2002 Dear David, Thank you so much for telling me about your site. I read it all through yesterday evening and despite 15 years of "ex-Christianity" I was riveted, experiencing all the old visceral thoughts and feelings vividly bought back with your well written descriptions. Although currently a short site (no bad thing ;-) ) I was very impressed with the way you have identified and discussed some of the most poignant issues that confront a new ex-Christian, or those in the process of this awakening. I found your writings not only warm, humane and even "spiritual" but also purveying the real heat of the thoughts and emotions that so many of us have gone through. This is something I would have liked to have done more of on my own site, but I think you have done it far better than I had sketched out!.... Like you say, it really can hit you in the gut and I have found from discussion lists that many new ex-Christians are desperate to talk about this magnitude of feeling and discovery. As you probably know, after Blaise Pascal died a friend found sewn into Pascal's jacket a note entitled "FIRE!" describing the enormity of the spiritual feeling he once experienced. I wonder what Christians would think if they could catch a glimmer of what it is really like to experience the fire of coming out the other side. Like you I was astonished at the raw power that waking up out of Christianity brought - even though I perceived my Christian time as a deep and spiritual thing whilst a Christian. Although some leave Christianity without much fuss, for many deconversion is a tough call indeed. I was interested in your description of deconversion as a "divorce." I have heard others talk about it as a bereavement and having to go through a mourning process. As you discuss, there is an extra poignancy though, to realise that the beloved not only does not and never did love you, but is, always was, and always will be, a fantasy. Nothing compares to that! But once the dust settles frequently people describe deconversion very positively. Many "oceanic" moments wondering at nature, the raw moment and the magnitude and poignancy of life indeed! Hardly the nihilism churches lead the flock to expect for an apostate. In a perverse way it made me glad I had been a Christian, in that the shock of discovery is presumably lost on those who have not had to have their whole world rewritten. However, before I felt too smug I was discussing this with a friend, only to learn that he too, without having been religious, had gone through an awakening and transforming stage in life when the magnitude of reality struck him. Maybe once again Christianity had led me astray and I came late to realise that being hit in the face by the world, our finitude, the glory, shock (or even Nausea a la Sartre) of naked existence and the astonishment of consciousness (I read Jung shortly after my deconversion) is all part of gaining an adult appreciation of life. Thanks again for your writings, and for the obvious care you've taken in giving us something of quality.... I look forward to future musings you may upload to your site! Best regards, S David's Response: Your letter made my day! Thanks so much for what you said. With the publication of my site, I have put myself out on the line in a way I have not done since exiting my Christian belief structure, and I was a bit apprehensive about it. About ten years ago, I wrote a book (that took me about ten years to write) presenting the "Preterist" interpretation of Christianity and the New Testament. I finally published it in 1994 and, although a small print run, it has been sold and distributed around the world. It was from that kind of deep committment to the Bible that I emerged into freethought and rationalism. The phrase "paradigm shift" is overused, but this qualifies as a true paradigm shift if there ever was one, as I am sure you know from your own experience. I like your phrase, "oceanic moments" -- that's very true. Who would have thought that such feelings could happen in a universe with no Jehovah God in it! But, it is when the floor is pulled out from under one that things get really interesting!.... I once believed that anyone "losing their faith" would lead wretched and angry lives or else would drift into "make up your own religion" New Age ideas that I assumed were totally meaningless. Now I know that both ideas are false. I live an exuberant and invigorating life, and I have even found that, aside from the obvious fluff, many of the so-called New Age ideas have much truth and depth to them. I am continually having my mind prodded by the terrific array of published thought - things I had no clue about before my big shift. Now I'm paying attention and it is very enlightening. For instance, if you really want to challenge your understandings of the origins of religion, you might entertain some of the ideas about "entheogens" or psychoactive plants and their relationship to the earliest of religions that we know of in Vedic India and Siberia. Very interesting, as it leads to discussions of whether "spiritual" realms and mystical experiences are real or just in our brain chemistry. I am very much undecided and am having some interesting discussions with my wife and friends about these things.... David Date: Mon, 4 Feb 2002 Subject: YES! I have tears of joy, as I sit here reading your words. There are others like me, who have had virtually the same feelings and experiences that I have had, I am not alone! I too have mourned the death of my god. My life was my religion, being born and raised in a Morman household, (fifth generation). I have gone from complete submission to the teachings of my church to outright hearesy opening a "new age" shop.... Going back to school was the biggy though, taking Philosophy and coming to the conclustion that I will never know if a god exists. I have come to accept my agnosticism as well as to realize that this is my only life, my only chance to "be" and life is short, so I try to make the best of every moment. It does not take fear or religion to make some people want to be "good," those who live a ethical life because they choose, are more honorable than those who are motivated by the fear of punishment. It is lonely here, in this space of mine. I do not know many who share my thoughts and feelings. I will enjoy reading the rest of your site and the recommended sites. Thanks,
V David's Response: Hi V! I am so happy to have received your email. It is for people such as yourself (and myself, too) that I created the site. You are correct in that it can be very lonely to pursue truth when it takes us beyond our accepted culture. One of the most wonderful things about our modern world is this ability to connect with people of like mind instantly, no matter where they are in the world. There is quite a large community of folks who have trod this particular path, and the internet is where to find them. I hope you will continue to look around and discover the many resources that are available.... I very much agree with your point about the relative value of ethics in a person who has chosen an ethical lifestyle on purpose and for its own sake, as opposed to one who has been forced into a semblance of one through fear, coersion, or desire of a fantasy life after death. I see that rational person who decides to be ethical as far more noble and deserving of our respect and admiration. We humans have a lot to be proud of, and I hope we can begin to acknowledge our strengths in the name of Humanity instead of in the name of a non-present god. I was conversing with someone earlier about how we were both surprised at the powerful and positive emotional rewards we experienced after "de-converting" from our religious structures, and how unexpected that was. I hope you have also been able to perceive the exuberance and power of freethought in pursuit of Truth! There is much for us to learn out there - more than ever was apparent before. Check out my book list when you have a chance. There is much there that will open new doors. I am sure you learned much in your Philosophy courses, too.... Best Regards, David V's Response: Thank you so much for returning my e-mail. I enjoyed your site, and am impressed at your articulate manner of communicating and your talent in writing. You have passion. My analytical nature has often tormented me, as I seem to never stop thinking about my life, the human condition, and those so frequent questions concerning our origins, purpose and future destiny. I was taking my morning walk today, the sun was out, and the first signs of spring were all around me. I often wonder how all this could have come to be, and yes my mind always wanders into the contemplation of a god. It is a comforting thought and I can see how it has given many the security they need to go on with their lives. But, I am not such a person. I have always wanted answers, answers that make sense, answers that do not leave more questions unanswered. I know that there are certain questions that cannot be answered, but the anwers that I accept must be logical. I cannot function on faith. Yes, I can have hope, but faith, that is another matter. I cannot blindly follow a belief without some sort of confirmation of it's truth. I hope that some part of me will survive death, that maybe my consciousness will remain in some form, this innate desire I cannot squealch, but to undeniably know that it is so, I cannot. Those that live with the comfort of faith I think are lucky in a way that they are not tormented with the constant questioning that I have lived with. They are content to believe. That is fine, for them. But there are others of us who, even though we live in a sea of uncertainty, we thrive on our desire to discover and learn all that we can about our existence and take nothing for granted, not even our hopeful infinite natures. I dare to ask how, why, what, where, and I dare to live with the answers that I find, and the ones I do not. "A philosopher--is a human being who constantly experiences, sees, hears, suspects, hopes, and dreams extraordinary things; who is struck by his own thoughts as from outside, as from above and below, as by his type of experiences and lightning bolts; who is perhaps himself a storm pregnant with new lightnings; a fatal human being around whom there are constant rumblings and growlings, crevices, and uncanny doings. A philosopher--alas, a being that often runs away from itself, often is afraid of itself--but too inquisitive not to "come to" again--always back to himself." --Nietzche Date: Wed,
06 Mar 2002 David's Response: Hi
B, Date: Tue, 12 Mar 2002 Subject: You took the words right out of my life Hi David, Thank you for the time you spend creating and maintaining this website. I would say god bless you, but.... I am currently experiencing this situation as you described below. After 4 years of pondering what just happened to me. I have decided that my devotion to the religion of christianity was misguided. I have just now started NOT to FEAR any longer! and am SLOWLY starting to rebuild Thanks for listening, B.A. 46 years old (42 as a christian) David's
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28 Mar 2002 C David's Response: Dear C, ....I want to thank you so much for taking the time and interest to write to me. If you have read my book, Prophecy Fulfilled, then you know quite a bit about the preterist interpretation of the Bible, which you allude to in describing what you have been studying and thinking about recently. That interpretation is the only one that made any sense to me when trying to understand the Bible and Christian religion, and I spent many years of my life piecing that view together and consolidating it into a book form. But, as you have found, I have undergone a revolution in thinking about and understanding religion and the true history of mankind. You said you found the title "Joy of Disillusionment" on the net, and I was curious if you were able to visit my site by that name and read some of what is there? It contains many essays and other resources that present my current point of view and also, I have just added a somewhat detailed account of my own journey from Christian thought to a Rationalist viewpoint. If you are interested, I would encourage you to read my essay, "My Journey", but briefly, I feel that I have "opened up" out of a small box that I now think of as Christian religion. That box is too small to hold me any longer and I have learned far too much to ever go back into it. The kinds of things I have learned are similar to what you have written about in your letter. The correlations of the holidays with solar and astronomical events, for instance, are important clues to understanding where religious ideas came from and how Christianity has obliterated much of what once was the true religions of mankind. I would encourage you to continue reading and studying new things, and please check out my book list on the Joy of Disillusionment site for some very solid books that will really challenge your thinking in a healthy way. Don't miss Ishmael and The Story of B, by Daniel Quinn. I took a peek at the site you mentioned, and it seemed to me to be very uncritical of new ideas. Those of us who have come out of one box should be reticent about jumping into another one without some really solid proofs and cross-discipline connections to assure us that the new ideas we are considering have merit and are not just more human fiction! I, for instance, am currently examining the history and current practices of shamanism (the oldest "religion" of humanity) to see if it is more than superstition. I have reason to believe it is more, and I'm researching it now, but I won't allow myself to fall into the "New Age" fluff trap, if you understand what I mean. You asked what I think about my book now. That is a good question, and I would have to answer it by saying that I am very proud of that book and all the work that went into it. It represents much of what and who I am now, and set the stage for the kind of positive critical analysis of new ideas I've been speaking of, even if I no longer believe that the content of my book is rational and "real". I have told others who have asserted that I have "lost my faith" that I have not lost it - I have simply put it away in a box in my attic. I know right where it is, and should real, empirical proof come to me that the God of the Jewish/Christian Bible is real, I will open that box and reclaim that faith. I invite that proof. I would very much like for God to show up. Until that time, I shall remain an "opened up" person who maintains a rationalist view of things as a default position. This is not a negative place - my life is more full of joy, exuberance, rich information, peace, and wonderful creativity than it has ever been before! Please check out the Joy of Disillusionment site sometime soon, and email me again to let me know what you think, ok? The URL is: http://www.newrational.com/joy It sounds like from your first statement that you might have been raised in the Church of Christ. If so, we have much in common, as that was my upbringing also. It seems that you have begun to exit that old box for yourself, and that is a wonderful thing. I wish you a good journey and many jarring and exciting discoveries. Just keep your wits about you and don't take anyone's word without a good dose of skepticism! Best regards, David Date:
Tue, 28 May 2002 Keep
up the good work, K. David's
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Response: Date: Sun, 30 Jun 2002 Subject: hi I like your web site, I have been researching sites like yours for years. My hsusband is a christian and addicted to it. It makes me ill, I am stuck in this marriage because of business and preteens. anyway all I can do is carry on and it is not fun V David's Response: Hi
V,
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